I got a question from a reader: What does your Master do when you disobey him?
People have asked me this question before. I think they want to hear that I am disobedient and that I will be beaten or tortured. My answer is this, why would I disobey him when I consent to having him call the shots and know that I am privileged beyond imagination to be able to say that he consents to own me? Why, in a consensual relationship such as this, would a slave violate the person that they have chosen to submit to? It wouldn't make sense.
It's a matter of choice. To carry over the conversation from yesterday. I am essentially a Toaist/Buddhist. Not by religion, which neither was meant to be but philosophy. I heartily suggest that Dominant and Submissive people at least read some of the basics tenants of these related philosophies as well as Confucius. It all helps me carry on in my entire life but also guides my behavior as a slave. The first task is to control your ego.
I think male to male relationships fail most often because of conflicting egos.
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So I have this piercing in the head of my cock. I WANTED IT and I got it. It has been about two weeks and it is healing as expected. It causes pains and often itches to the point that it makes me very horny. It is not locked up and Master refuses to touch or allow me to touch it until it is completely healed. It is torture by denial.
Ray called to say that he has completed the alterations to all "my" chastity devices and wants to come for the weekend and drop them off. With locks going through the tip of my cock and the devices, I will definitely feel more stuck than ever.
Last night, Master made me sit between his legs while watching television. My arms were held and locked by his legs. He reached over my head to work my tits during commercials. Can you believe that I actually was not in the mood? He knew it which added to the thrill he got out of my moans. My cock hung limp between my legs and I wished more that anything to be able to ask him to leave my tits along. I tortured me for the length of the movie and all of the commercials.
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Today was a studio day. I had the entire day to myself with a break for lunch. I prepared an 8 foot by 6 foot canvass with Butch's help them primed and sanded it several times. I sat and starred at the blank white cloth wondering what it will look like as I work on it. I have nothing in particular in mind except to photograph the animals.
Dinner was a salad with freshly roasted beets with roasted chicken breasts. Tony made bread with cheese, whole grains and setan for protein. We had roasted pineapple with cinnamon crème fraiche for desert. All in all, the day was quiet until Master strung me up in the dungeon and gagged me. He drew his belt out of hiss jeans and I got an erection. He beat my ass and back. I screamed "I'm going to cum". He told me to go ahead but don't expect me to stop just because I shot my wad. I came in short time. I shot straight out in front of myself, no hands. Master gave me a few more whacks then tenderly ran his hands over my body, kissing me from head to foot. He let me down. He held his folded belt in his hands and whacked me on the back with it as we walked into the house.
It was a good after dinner treat.
So, all in all life goes on fairly well for everyone on the ranch. I'd be interested to know what the canvas turns out like in time.
ReplyDeleteI think those sort of questions are prompted in a way by the "commercialism" of the BDSM scene and the master /slave relationship. What used to be a private affair is now allowed to become public (maybe not in every state or country but you get my drift) It tends to reflect a shallower life in many ways,one where the partners are partners for a time - to enjoy the rush and excitement at the time - but not destined for a life long existence. Obviously there are exceptions but they tend to be exceptions and not the rule.
Where you have committed to a life with each other you don't actually need or want the quick thrills. What you've written above would probably be a bit tame for most as it's "normal" life, for you knowing you have the rest of it together it's just another area to be explored.
I think I agree with you. My relationship comes as a recognition of need for both of us and I think for all of us, especially on the ranch. We're friends above all or the structure that we set up wouldn't exist as it does. It is my intention to build longevity by paying good "wages", health care, strong retirement benefits and even shares in the ranch so everyone knows they have a voice in their home. I want to have good people around me. Master is obviously the prime example of an even stronger commitment. I hated living alone. My life was so empty at the end of the day. Having people to share my life and wealth with makes me happy.
ReplyDelete"Share" That's the pivot in my opinion. Even the poorest can share, a smile, moral support. Sharing your life doubles the experience for giver and taker as you end up being both.
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