Master is sitting on the sofa arm. He is wearing nothing but an old red t-shirt. His balls and cock hang freely, teasing me. He is wearing a cockeyed smile as he watches me struggle with the keyboard.
Affection? I know it is there not matter what he does or what he choses to express.
What am I learning? I can be an object but only within the confines of existing relationships and how they affect our attitudes toward our actions. Remember that every relationship must remain fluid to stay alive. I don't know what the future holds, not even 5 minutes from now.
Iron is heavy and unforgiving. I have to adjust my body to accept it's weight and relieve the pain it inflicts. Sometimes I actually feel annoyed that something can be so heavy and yet not restrictive enough. I am ceaselessly horny. I think the frustration that I feel causes that.
I think by reading "within the confines of existing relationships and how they affect our attitudes toward our actions" I've come to see much more clearly your mindset and to understand a little more of what's going on.
ReplyDeleteI have constant conflict thinking about the situation which often just comes down to "why do it" when you are both obviously already so far down the line as Master and slave; lover and husband, what is the gain? Is it just another experience of bondage and submission?
Reading you above I think I see where you are coming from. I understand it to be a development of what you already have, a constant progression that keeps alive what you started out with.
Attitudes towards our actions, more than just the sum of the two alone.